It was all part of the plan Just think a year from now you won’t remember my name We hydroplaned And I watched us crash and burn before we hit the wall Stepping stones don’t exist when I’ve fallen off a cliff Selfishness, ignorance, fucking bliss It wasn’t enough, I’m never enough You say that you cared, I’m calling your bluff I’ll never be fucking good enough I tried to erase you but the words smeared on the paper I need a…mind eraser One so vile and abrasive that I won’t remember all the pain you put me through This was all part of your plan It’s been a year and I can’t remember your face My minds gone blank but nothing feels the same Memories replaced with the let-down of an empty promise I should have called this from a mile away But I was blinded by what was and what could have been us And so I’ll stay awake at night haunted by the thought of years lost And time spent caring for someone… Who didn’t give a fuck whether I was still breathing at the end of the day I still can’t believe how easily you dropped everything and pushed me away So let me set this straight I am everything you hate I’m the grime that lines your sink I’m the fucking demon seed All I wanted was for you to fucking care for once in your selfish life The time we wasted The feeling of being alone, out in the cold A misguided soul, destined to spend his life on his own I hope you’re happy I’m standing here with a sense of regret for the things I have said
