I made a deal with something
I couldn't name
And now it lives inside me
You found me in the quiet
When I was begging just to feel
Turned every scar into a doorway
And taught me not to heal
It whispers in your voice at night
Like you never left
And every time I try to breathe
It tightens in my chest
If I let you starve, do I disappear?
Are you the only reason I'm still here?
Every wound I tried to save
Is just another thing you take
Don't let me get better
Don't set me free
If you die inside me
What's left of me?
I kept you like a secret
Buried deep beneath my skin
Turned your absence into something
I could live within
Maybe I don't miss you
Maybe I just need the pain
'Cause without it in my bloodstream
I've got nothing left to say
I built myself around it
Every broken piece
Now if I try to tear it out
It tears me
If I let you starve, do I disappear?
Are you the only reason I'm still here?
Every scar I try to keep
Is everything you made of me
Don't let me get better
Don't set me free
If you die inside of me
You take all of me
Was it ever you?
Or just the thing you left in me
'Cause I still feel it
Breathing
If I let you starve, do I disappear?
Are you the only reason I'm still here?
Every scar I try to keep
Is everything you made of me
Don't let me get better
Don't set me free
If you die inside me
You take all of me
I think it's still alive
