If We Must Be Apart (A Love Story Continued)

She still thinks about him from time to time
It can be just a familiar feeling running through her
What would he have thought about this and that
Once upon a time he made her heart beat faster
Now he's more of a ghost who haunts her
And her husband can never know
Even with the new life that grows inside her
She still thinks about him from time to time

Ten years have passed since they lived together
Living through the trials of figuring out
That they were no good for each other
His love was dark and made hers darker
The kind of violence that leaves no bruises
Sings like when a hammer hits
Steel and resonates along her spine
Now he's more of a ghost who haunts her
And her husband can never know
Even with the new life that grows inside her
She still thinks about him from time to time

He's finished with his letter he thinks it sounds decent enough
It must be a real letter because that's the way you deal with love
"I cannot believe it's been so long since we last spoke
You should see me now and how my life is just a joke
Everything I do reminds me of everything we used to do"
She didn't know that he felt this way
"How could he keep this from me
Even though I couldn't stay
I still feel for him in some funny way"

Can I come closer
Can't you come closer
Could we be closer
Would you want to meet me
Just to see you would be nice
If there's nothing left, if we're like
Strangers then that's that
Everything would be a waste of time

I'd might as well end it all
As they cling onto the past
Everything changes fast
While spying on her online
There's an unwelcome surprise
He can see that she's with child

There's no time for a letter now he just
Wanna leave but he doesn't know how
As the memories turn grey
Only one way left to make it all go away
Black magic in my broken heart
It's the only reason it's still beating
Black magic in my shattered heart
I take my life if we must be apart

Gather my thoughts, I cry while they align
All play their part in the crime
Creeping and crawling, soon we stand
All hail by my command
There's darkness living in my heart
I take my life if we must be apart
Gather my thoughts, I cry while they align
All play their part in the crime
Creeping and crawling, soon we stand
All hail by my command

Black magic lives inside my heart
It's the only reason it's still beating
Black magic in a shattered heart
I take my life if we must be apart
Her eyes are all I see as she embraces me
I'm drowning in a dream while floating down the stream
She feels him can't let go
He's there, he's in her head
Oh let this be a dream
He can't be dead

She still thinks about him from time to time
She remembers that night when she found him laying
Curled up like a ball inside a circle of candle lights
He wasn't dead, he wasn't there, it wasn't him no more
He couldn't speak from all the pills he'd swallowed
The sight of his harrowed face could have made her sick
And when she sat by his side, holding his hand
The only words she could decipher were "black magic"

She reads the letter again, she knows it
Now by heart keeps it in a drawer
Along with some old photographs
It's a picture of a younger her together
With someone she once loved
He lost his mind and he said it was because of her
She looks into her newborn daughter's eyes
She still thinks about him from time to time