I think it was the first time
I realized that i can change the world
Or at least change the way you and my sister hit the clock
On every tick just to see what happened
The time has really flown by
I guess and it's hard to think of the way it might've been
Or remember very specifically the words and all the rest of it
I was down, more than i wanted to be probably
That is what we do with it all together
Like the orange trees in the backyard
And it's Easter and it just won't end
Fucking Phil, he's off with his boys somewhere
And i'm just sitting here getting more and more lost with everything
And that was the thing about it
It's not as if a cousin promised something and taken it away
It was like nobody could share my so-called dreams
Which really meant none of it was happening
And that reach around midnight left her with just about that, nothing
There's not anything particular about it either
And i think the whole thing gets vaguer every second
But i am too and there's nothing wrong with that
It's even funny when you stop to realize i'm just nineteen
And how serious can anything be anyway? Not very
