I don't feel youthful
And I don't feel sad
I don't fuck with these pills anymore
But these days move so fast
And I'm starting to notice the ones I held closest, take more than what they give back
Yeah, I used to seek violence
But now I use silence as my proper means for attack
I don't need anything
Took a lot of time, but I'm not complaining
Took a lot of paranoia moving through the stages
Every single time, I get the feeling that I'm breaking
Think about another time when I was fucking nameless
Mark my words, this healing comes with separation
When you get this deep, the feel comes with desperation
Beat me down, rip my heart in two
There's nothing that you can take
I know it's true
So let me be, I'll wear my scars
Tread this road till I've gone too far
Left in piece, kept in parts
Burned this life for the next to start
So let me be
'Cus I'm dying to live
And I'm sick from the noise
I'll make my way through all that I have to
'Cus I'm dying to live
And I've been through the void
And I'll celebrate the fact that I have proof
A state of mind I'd never tried
And I know that it's all my fault
To justify the darkest times
Means you never had control
It means you never had control
