Regurgitating pieces of my soul My sickness of myself always churns I realised life was limited and thus, began to limit myself To becoming a machine of self destruct I lost myself to stay relentless And yet these tears still fall But they do not take me away with them. Emotion no longer moves me Im dying within a dead pain Ive lost the reason to wish I could change. Within the same old sadness where I cannot be helped For without something missing: there is nothing there. My demise is my only thought How hard I fight the temptation to end it all Without knowing what I'm fighting for. Only to stay in a pain Ive had so long Atleast If I die I wont need this anymore. The only way through this is to become cold But walking forward only leads nowhere. It always gets worse. Ide give anything to go back But I have nothing left to offer. I exsist in a time that has gone Only in helpless things can I pretend to have hope. Pain is so worthlessly easy to feel I endure myself for nothing.
