Proud Of Me (feat. Meek Mill)

I know you proud of me, look at all this shit I prevailed
The youngest of your seeds, makin' sure the family eat well
I give 'em what they need, I vow we always be well
I told brodie change his ways, I'm prayin' he don't see jail
To live another day, I'm prayin' I won't see Hell
Ain't no tellin' what I'd do for my family, just know I mean well
No, you ain't next to me, no, you ain't next to me
But I'm hopin' you can see, I'm prayin' you can see

A million dollar curses turn to million dollar dreams
A million dollars on me, but girl, it ain't what it seems
I'm havin' nightmares, I'm havin' nightmares of my brother clutchin' on me
Can't see the snakes up in the grass, so will you show me?
You can't trust these niggas, ain't your friends, what you told me
Young man, just stay up off the streets, it can get lonely
You can do whatever you wanna dream of, what you told me
I ain't understand your words back then, but that's the old me, but look at me now
I'm walkin' on the stage, they waitin' for me like twenty-thre thou'
Too many voices in my head, just know I'm hearin' you loud
I'm walkin' 'round, smile on my face, just know I'm hurtin' inside
Oh, yeah, I'm hurtin' inside
So I buy diamonds on diamonds on diamonds galore
Chain after chain after chain, what's the worth?
But it seemed to be the only thing that make me happy
I lost my soul and I lost my daddy
I know, I know

I know you proud of me, look at all this shit I prevailed
The youngest of your seeds, makin' sure the family eat well
I give 'em what they need, I vow we always be well
I told brodie change his ways, I'm prayin' he don't see jail
To live another day, I'm prayin' I won't see Hell
Ain't no tellin' what I'd do for my family, just know I mean well
No, you ain't next to me (me), no, you ain't next to me (me)
But I'm hopin' you can see, I'm prayin' you can see

Hunnid dollar nightmares turn to million dollar dreams
Ridin' past the block where my dad got left on the scene
Look at your lil' boy now, we done turned to kings
Shit turned me a grown man 'fore I was seventeen
Had to go and play my own hand, I did this for Nasheema and the whole fam
I got everything, but I just really wanna hold hands with my old man
On wedding day while we slow dance
But ain't no love, shot him in his heart, ain't have no chance
So I can't sleep, 'somniac, bullet holes out the Pontiac
Swear to God, I'd trade in all these riches to get Robbie back (yeah)
Swear to God, I'd trade in all these foreigns to get Terry back
I'm hangin' out with my daddy, lost his life, and I'm aware of that
You had taught me how to fight (oh) and when you got shot (boom)
I thought about that shit every night, ain't got a Glock
I was hot, but I ain't stop, I just bought your mama spot (oh)
And winnin' now, she was livin' PHA, now can't nobody kick us out
Scared to show up at your grave 'cause I might try dig you out
Like you know I did this shit for you
Never heard you say it back, still be like, I miss you too
And when I catch the nigga that did this to you, he gettin' sent to you
Skippin' school daddy did, fuck the principal
She think I'm missin' screws, when really, I'm just missin' you
My homie dad gon' pick us up, I want you to get me too
I was kinda mad I ain't have one that used to hit me too
Nipsey blue Cullinan, I'm in the Ghost, I think of you
Think of bro, I think of Snupe, I think 'bout B, it made me, Ooh, (shit)
Money rule the world, but you can't pay God with it
I'd spend it all just to get back my niggas

I know you proud of me, look at all this shit I prevailed
The youngest of your seeds, makin' sure the family eat well
I give 'em what they need, I vow we always be well
I told brodie change his ways, I'm prayin' he don't see jail
To live another day, I'm prayin' I won't see Hell
Ain't no tellin' what I'd do for my family, just know I mean well
No, you ain't next to me, no, you ain't next to me
But I'm hopin' you can see, I'm prayin' you can see