The Old Us

I know this is super random
We done had our ups and downs and I done threw some tantrums
I honestly care about you way more than you could fathom
And God knows I ain't lyin', if only you could ask Him
I know you think our happiness just comes and goes in occasions
When I leave Earth, I wanna be frozen in place
With a rose in a case full of love notes I wrote for the days I got to be next to you
That's how I feel and no one can change it, but
I gotta get this tension off of my chest
'Cause every day I feel a constant regret
Now I can reflect to see the issues we never dissolved and suppressed
I guess it's only right that karma was next
And I'ma be open and honest with you, your absence is causing the stress
I wish the pain I feel would lay inside a coffin and rest
And it's only you who can soften my flesh
But still you run me in circles and lately you ain't been responding to texts
And now my only option is to act like I don't fucking need you
I bottle up the pain although the bottle's fucking see-through
I pray to God and wish that we could wash it up and re-do
Guess every love story just ain't got a fucking sequel
I just need to know if you feel the same
Why can't we kill the games and reconcile?
I know you still afraid, we both stuck
There's no trust, we gave our souls up the moment love had approached us, but—

Can we go back to the old us?
'Cause I just don't fuck with this new you
Lately you ain't showin' no love
You act like I never knew you
We need to stop the games right now
Let's stop the games, baby
I need you to ease the pain right now
I need you to keep it real with me, my love
Can we go back to the old us?
'Cause I just don't fuck with this new you
Lately you ain't showin' no love
You act like I never knew you
We need to stop the games right now
Let's stop the games, baby
I need you to ease the pain right now
I need you to keep it real with me, my love
Can we go back to the old us?

On my end there was mistakes made, I had too much pride to take blame
The moment my fame came, my ways changed
I couldn't stay sane and started making our sunny days rain
And even though my life has moved on, our history's too strong to forget
I won't pretend I ain't stained
And if you open up my fucking chest and take a look in my heart
I swear to God you gon' see yo' engraved name
How you gon' leave me hanging?
How you gon' leave me achin'?
I never did get my closure, so how you gon' mediate it?
How you gon' be when Zade is old enough to understand that his daddy isn't around?
How we gon' be related?
And I just want my family on track, that's the plan we both had
Shit is sad because I'm askin' for a chance we don't have
I fucking love you
And I just had to grab my notepad just to write a song for you saying—

Can we go back to the old us?
'Cause I just don't fuck with this new you
Lately you ain't showin' no love
You act like I never knew you
We need to stop the games right now
Let's stop the games, baby
I need you to ease the pain right now
I need you to keep it real with me, my love
Can we go back to the old us?
'Cause I just don't fuck with this new you
Lately you ain't showin' no love
You act like I never knew you
We need to stop the games right now
Let's stop the games, baby
I need you to ease the pain right now
I need you to keep it real with me, my love
Can we go back to the old us?

I'm sorry