Heaven's Door

When I see Heaven's door fly open
Can you be waiting for me?
Waiting for me
When I see Heaven's door fly open
Can you be waiting for me?
Waiting for me

You probably wouldn't have liked this song
Or the fact that I'm rapping
But you would've loved the heart in this if you caught the passion
I'm crying in my living room holding onto my son
Told me: Spend more time with grandma
'Cause you knew what was coming
Ever held onto somebody and hug them so tight
You couldn't imagine life without them
And kept on the lights, until they come
Inside my head I built a home
Only way for me to cope at seven years old
Wasn't tears in my eyes and nights without sleep
Just to fill in the actions 'cause you ain't here when I need you
Feel like I see you in flashes, catch you in moments
Like your hand is right in front of me but too far to hold it
And I know
It's all for you to cope when you were a kid
But tell me how am I supposed to feel
'Cause that part of my life is very real
And I won't forget

When I see Heaven's door fly open
Can you be waiting for me?
Waiting for me

And Drew never got to meet you, Rach never got to meet you
And if my two sons did they'd probably wanna be you
Watch this album title come to life if I could see you
I would climb a thousand flights if I could only reach you
Been too much in my head, bet you would give advice
I'm trying to balance friends and I'm trying to balance life
You died a peaceful death and hopefully that'd be mines
But right now I gotta focus on the life that lives inside
So maybe we should cry, maybe that's a good thing
And stop trying to hide, start showing off these tear stains
Life ain't just a vibe, it's more like when the fear came
We learn to rest inside like Jesus did when wind came
So maybe I'ma find those tapes and rewind them
I miss those days when I could sense the peace that's in your silence
You picked me up on Perry Lane, I was in the backseat crying
Death is such a scary thing, these memories can be our silver lining
Lost you when I was seven, loved your computer
Dad said: You'd be a receptionist in Heaven
Know them big collared shirts you had?
Grandma kept 'em, I wore 'em when I slept
Wish I had 'em when I wept, would've wiped these tears clean

Can you be waiting for me?
Waiting for me
When I see Heaven's door fly open
Can you be waiting for me?
Waiting for me

And I'ma pull up in a chariot (ooh-ooh)
And we gon' praise God for the time we had (ooh-ooh)
And I'ma pull up in a chariot (ooh-ooh)
And we gon' praise God for the time we had, had (ooh-ooh)