I think I've stayed in most of my relationships too long
I was chasing a love and a life that I grew up seeing with my parents
So it was moreso about an idea in my head than the actual relationship that I had
Also, I just didn't wanna be alone
Growing up a brown girl, a fat girl, essentially growing up feeling undesirable
When I got older and I had a man that desired me, it validated me, and made me feel good about myself
Therefore, the content that the validation brought me was worth the actual pain that the relationship eventually brought
And it's a sad, scary, and vulnerable place when you need to feel loved so much that you're willing to accept anything
