Or fine as it was for me 
 To see your face today 
 I guess I knew that it would happen at some point 
 And I dreaded it because I knew 
 That you would be so kind 
 You could've died you've got it right down to the signs 
    So you observe the strict rules laid out in the books of Vatican 
 And tell me you I enjoy my stay 
 And I feel none that I can believe 
 That I was stupid enough to leave my bed today 
 If I'm so smart then why's this happening   
 You know I hate this fucking town 
 You cannot even leave your fucking house 
 Without running into someone who no longer cares about you 
 Somebody who you desperately want to see 
 But you know it's only going to cause more grief 
 But there's nothing left to say 
 And he can't hear you anyway   
 It's so confusing 'cause I really want 
 To hate you, but my intellect reminds me 
 That that doesn't make no sense 
 And I wanted to be your friend 
 But I couldn't pull it off in the end 
 And I'm disappointed with myself as I thought I did   
 But then again you always made it clear 
 That you do not care either way 
 Which begs the question 
 How can I still claim to love you 
 You told me time and time again 
 That you don't lose you always win 
 And that to make an effort would just be beneath you   
 You know I hate this fucking town 
 You cannot even leave your fucking house 
 Without running into someone who no longer cares about you 
 Somebody who you desperately want to see 
 But you know it's only going to cause more grief 
 But there's nothing left to say 
 And he can't hear you anyway   
 Now I'm packing my bags again 
 And you are not in the saddle then