Don't tell me that shit never record, man
Man, let's try that again
My name is Joyner Lucas
I'm from Worcester, Massachusetts
And uh, by this time you get this video it might be too late
I did something really, really bad, man
I killed somebody tonight, yeah
I did
And I don't know if I shoulda did it, but I felt like it was necessary
You na'mean?
The person who I killed was the old me
Yeah, I see
I realize that everything I ever thought I knew about myself is wrong
And I realize that I had to sacrifice who I was for who I wanna become
I when I say: Not Now, I'm Busy that means I was too busy to face myself
And too busy to face the truth
And the truth is the old me had taken advantage of
The old me got fucked over
The old me got beat down
The old me got shit on and spitted on and lied to
And even though I tried to forgive
And force myself to live with the hurt that I hide behind the smile
When the water overflows as I hold my breath
And block my nose in hopes that I do not drown
And in that moment, I realized that I was lost and couldn't be found
And I needed to hear it, I just didn't know how
So I grabbed that gun and did what had to be done 'cause I couldn't hide
I couldn't run, I just had to die
And every drop of blood was for every tear that I ever bottled up
Now it's a flood
So fuck who you thought I was, you piece of shit
The old me says please forgive, but new me says eat a dick
The old me was supposed to give, the new me [?]
The old me just don't exist, so fuck you, you
I don't need emotions, I need endorphins (Give me dope, give me dope)
Oh-oh
Don't know the pain, yeah, it come with the change
You know this song gon' come after the rain
You ain't turnin' nothin' into something (Give me dope, give me dope)
They fuckin' know how to be real to be with you
All I hear is interruptions
They mean nothin' now (Oh)
Pipe down (Oh)
They mean nothin' now (Now, now)
Pipe down
Not now, I'm busy
They mean nothin' now (Oh)
Pipe down (Oh)
They mean nothin' now (Now, now)
Pipe down
Not now, I'm busy
