Saturday I was losing sleep
Thinking about the way you held me on New Year’s Eve
Like you wanted me for the first time
In a long time
I had closed my eyes for so long
Cause I’d rather live a lie than be alone
But I felt lonelier with you than I’ve ever been
Oh, in this portrait of the end
I'm kissing someone else outside a bar against my car
Oh, maybe it’s too soon
But I don’t wanna think of you
Just wanna be touched till you feel far
You’d be lying if you said you tried, ooh
I’ve heard that I should find someone
Who loves me more than I love them
But all I want is what I can’t have
Spent years chasing after you
Falling in love with potential
Like I always do
But I know now people never change
Oh, I'm going out like every night
Just to get you off my mind
Cause I miss our life
Oh, and when I think of what that means
It’s not that I want everything
But the good parts still make me cry
And you’d be lying if you said you tried, oh
And you’d be lying if you said you tried, oh
You said you did the best you could
It never felt like much but now it’s good
Cause I don’t have to say we’re alright
And I don’t have to lie, I know I tried
I don’t have to lie, I know I tried
