Nowadays, I don't really go outside
I don't even like the way I look, let alone the way I feel behind
And I should probably take my medication
'Cause it's been days but I've been busy getting high
And my doctor said: You'll get sick again, you can't mix these meds with white lines
And am I happy?
Truth is, I don't really know what that means anymore
All I know is that I'd like to be and someday I might get there
In the meantime I'll cry to Radiohead hoping my ex still cares, but
That's unlikely, he's probably having great sex
With that girl I knew was an idiot, the one with the bleached blonde hair
And I don't know if I'll ever forgive myself if I go ruin everything
That I'd like to be and someday I might get there
But in the meantime, who fucking cares?
Nowadays, it's hard to feel alive
When the only way I want to live is to try and slowly die
And I should probably find a new explanation
'Cause it's been days and I'm runnin' out of lies
My heart, it aches but as it starts to race
I can feel a taste of what it's like
To be happy
When truth is, I don't really know what that means anymore
But all I know is that I'd like to be and someday I might get there
But in the meantime, I'll cry to Radiohead hoping my ex still cares, but
That's unlikely, he's definitely having great sex
With that girl I knew was an idiot the one, with the bleached blonde hair
And I don't know if I'll ever forgive myself if I go ruin everything
That I'd like to be and someday I might get there
But in the meantime, who fucking cares?
Who fucking cares?
Who fucking cares?
Who fucking cares?
'Cause it's definitely not me
