I can let go of the flower, now my power has returned
I can look back at the past, now I see what I have learned
Try my best to act my age, but the child won't behave
She wants to scream and cry and rage
And who am I to take her grave?
The teenage years I never lived
The innocence of high school kids
Young romance and endless nights
Of carefree joy and pure delight
Didn't grow up in a normal world
And now I'm just an adult girl
Now I'm too old to die young, but at least I had some fun
Spent my twenties on the run dreamin' of suicide and love
Think I'm stuck somewhere between childhood and va-va-voom
Always cycling in-between existential dread and doom
Messy numb razors and knives
Missed arteries and blacked-out nights
Kittens, mittens, plushy toys
Bows and hearts and sullen boys
Robbed me of a teenage world
Now I'm just an adult girl
An adult girl
Someone, tell me how to heal the terror livin' inside me
I don't even know what's real, I just know I wanna be free
All the things I lost and loved
Swept them underneath the rug
Like the child, I wait and hope
You might repair the things you broke
Now I understand the world of adult boys 'cause I'm an adult girl
I'm an oyster without a pearl
But that's just how it is for an adult girl
An adult girl
Adult girl
