Sitting in the hot seat, I'm gonna burn alive
Sweating into my coffee, it's gonna be a long night
Sobriety makes me anxious, but so does getting drunk
Never been much of an actor, but I've always been a punk
Can't win, it's a lose-lose situation
Can't swim without you, hesitation
What I'm doing to myself, I will never live it down
I'm gonna need some help and I don't wanna drown
Staring contest with the bar, I don't know why I can't just take myself away
All these empty glasses staring at me, laughing in my face
How can I atone if I am on my own? I don't have the willpower
And though it's awkward, I need support when it's happy hour
Haven't been out in ages, no one looks the same
I haven't been this courageous for a while, I wanna make a change
A moment of weakness and fate intervenes
But I'm staying on the wagon, I promised I'd be clean
Just once, it's a win-win situation
No one can reclaim my elation
What I'm doing to my soul, messing with my mind
Falling down the rabbit hole and I don't know how to climb
Staring contest with the bar, I don't know why I can't just take myself away
All these empty glasses staring at me, laughing in my face
How can I atone if I am on my own? I don't have the willpower
And though it's awkward, I need support when it's happy hour
It always went either way
I'd have a coke and leave, or drop a pill and drink and stay
Never wanna let my demons fully run away
I owe 'em a debt that I can't really afford to pay
Keep your enemies and let your friends fade away
It's a surprise when I rise and live another day
I can't go on, keep the show on
If I do, I'm gonna lose a fucking colon
Or a kidney or a lung
I'm just a kid, see, I've just begun
I need peace, need solace, need kindness
One more beer could leave me to beer blindness
Last night was alright, I survived
Except the gaps in night that I missed
I could've reassessed my passion for life
But I can't remember it, 'cause I was pissed
Staring contest with the bar, I don't know why I can't just take myself away
All these empty glasses staring at me, laughing in my face
How can I atone if I am on my own? I don't have the willpower
And though it's awkward, I need support when it's happy hour
