The blackened cold reminds me
 
 Of all the distance we had crossed
 
 And if your darkness blinds me
 
 I could never be more lost
 
  
  But I'm not the one who seeks your protection
 
 I'm not the one to share the disguise
 
 And I'm not the one who reeks of rejection
 
 I'm not the one to tear the same way twice
  
 
 You push from the inside
 
 Smothered
 
 You push from the inside out
 
 Smothered
 
 You push from the inside
 
 Smothered
 
 You push from the inside out
  
 
 Here all your walls surround me
 
 They're closing in they've locked my sight
 
 The violence around me
 
 Found me when I could not fight
  
 
 But I'm not the one to take your direction
 
 I'm not the one who wears the disguise
 
 And I'm not the one to share your reflection
 
 I'm not the one you break the same way twice
  
 
 You push from the inside
 
 Smothered
 
 You push from the inside out
 
 Smothered
 
 You push from the inside
 
 Smothered
 
 You push from the inside out
  
 
 I will never win
 
 I will never win with you
 
 I will never win
 
 I will never win with you
  
 
 I read you
 
 I feel you
 
 Wound up
 
 No more than you know
 
 I hate you
 
 I still do
 
 Every time you let me go
  
 
 You push from the inside
 
 Smothered
 
 You push from the inside out
 
 Smothered
 
 You push from the inside
 
 Smothered
 
 You push from the inside out
  
 
 I will never win
 
 I will never win with you
 
 I will never win
 
 I will never win with you
  
 
 Smothered
 
 I'd smother