I waste my time on my whole life
Hold my thought cos I've been sleep deprived
I waste my life in broke mind
Hold my words cos they never come out right
I'm trying really hard to be someone you'd like
I'm trying really hard to feel like I'll be be fine
I'm trying really hard and maybe I'll find
That my reflection in the mirror isn't all that unkind
Cant I be a little self sure
Self secure
On that I'm not all that I think I am
Cant I get a little control
Open my doors
On that I'm not all that bad as I think I am
I don't really care for what I have left
Fucked myself up, I deserve all this mess
Fuck all this love, I hate to admit
I'm really like this
Scum piece of shit
I know I could be brighter
I know I could aim higher
I know I should think lighter
I know if be fine if I was a tryer
I hate how I can't let myself hang low
If I didn't speak at all I'm think I would let it go
If I could say how I hurt I would promise to let you know
I've been feeling godamn low
I just can't let it go
Do you remember 2013
From then on I wished my life was unseen
I hate who I could have been
Let myself slit up my skin
And drown all my dreams
In the sink
I'm sorry maybe I should have tried harder
Jumped from a bridge that was just that little bit higher
I'm sorry My words can't be any sharper
I'd cut up my mind and set the remains on fire
At least you could have said I'm gone on the drugs
But I am sober now and I still seem to fuck up
I'm sorry I can't accept all your love
It wears me off
