What Does Your Love Look Like? (feat. Ren)

I'm not right for you, but I'm just what I should be
You tried to change me, I tried to change you, we never changed did we?
What does your love look like?
What does your love look like?

What does your love look like?
What does your love look like?

As much as I do wanna love you, I feel like we're speaking two different languages
Your house had a gate, and mine had instigated so that's the environment we feel safer in
You thought it was crazy how long it took me to tell you I love you like that was the weirdest
I only heard dad say I love you when mom in the room when he went back in to singing his lyrics
So how could you blame me cause you always choose to (you always choose to)
You wanna know where I be at all the time but that's not what I'm used to (not what I'm used to)
You knew when your dad was at work or he's home when he's taking a load off (taking a load off)
I didn't know where until one 24 the day I got that phone call
And I let the phone drop
I'm tryna be my best to be a gentleman
I'm tryna learn I'd never had the chance
I still look to my manager but he gon' teach me how to be a rapper before a good man
I grew up afraid to find a letter on my mommas dresser telling us goodbye
I'm used to it all so you ain't gotta hold back and cry, but I gotta tell you why-

I'm not right for you, but I'm just what I should be
You tried to change me, I tried to change you, we never changed did we?
What does your love look like?
What does your love look like?

What does your love look like?
What does your love look like?

I'm not right for you
But I won't get up and leave
Cause I hate the pain that this colour my veins that is present in solitary
What does your love look like?
Does it look black and white?
Is he your kryptonite?
Do all your demons get louder at night and the voices get softer whenintertwine

I've been going to therapy lately
Cause the cause and effect made me hate the-
Way that I feel when the loving gets real cause I just wanna run and escape the-
Pressure that pains me
Pressure of safety
Pressures of promises that come to maybes
Pressure of bravely moving in the same direction
Depression been driving me crazy
So my therapist said that these moods that I kept were created when I was a kid
And just like that all my thoughts raced back to a Welsh town '96
My mother was crying, my father was screaming and shouting, denying the sin of deceiving and cheating and lying
The weeds were uprooted, the is dying, but still she forgives
The cycle repeats every night, I tried to sleep, hearing the screams through concrete
Muddling peace, a vision of love, a lesson that fused with the cells in my blood
A lesson that told me that love ain't enough and the love can be when times get tough
Flash forward five years later, sitting in the passenger seat of my dad's car with my maker
My dad looks shaken, turned to face him, the words that he spoke cut throat like razor
He said Ren, sometimes love can be complicated, navigating a world that we co-created, and I've made mistakes but I'll love you daily
And just like that, it's just me, my mom and my sis
The stress left mom disabled for a bit
I grew fast then, cause I gotta be a new Ren
Strong for my sis and my mom, not a loose end
Confused but moving through the confusion
My all new love feels fake like

What does your love look like?
Does it take your insides
Does it keep you up at night?
My brother, does it make you feel like a fist in your windpipe?
Suffocate the feeling of what loves meant to feel like
Navigating new but I'm still not quite right
One night stand makes the pain stop one night
One more heart to the blade of my cold knife
What does your love look like?
(What does your love look like?)
(What does your love look like?)

(What does your love look like?)
(What does your love look like?)

You realise how hard I work and you told me you feel for me
If I lost all my motivation tomorrow would you still love me?
It's easy to love when I'm up, when I'm down and you leaving
You can't even give me an answer cause you never seen it and that's why it's hard to believe it
If you needed help but I'm too far away is it over for you?
Maybe I'm just not the person for you even though I could still be the soul for you (right)
Maybe we are meant to be together but our history got in the way (in the way)
Your trust issues, my fear issues, too many issues at play
You yell fast, I get quiet, you wanna see more passion (more passion)
I've seen what real yelling can lead to so no I don't have it (don't have it)
I grew up afraid to see holes in the wall in the room that was locked from inside
I promise I'm used to it all
You don't gotta ever hold back a cry
But I gotta tell you why-

I'm not right for you, but I'm just what I should be
You tried to change me, I tried to change you, we never changed did we?
What does your love look like?
What does your love look like?

What does your love look like?
What does your love look like?