You always needed the stage
The center light, the louder name
I played the clown, I played the friend
But you were always the main event
One spark, one trick too far
One firework that broke my arms
You vanished through the smoke and flame
And I never saw you again
I crawled out of that circus hell
Alone, afraid, and burned to hell
And all I wanted – just once – was you
But you ran
And I knew
You ruined my life!
You let me bleed in the dirt
While you chased a dream and left me hurt
You ruined my life!
And then you smiled like nothin’ changed
Like I should laugh through all the pain
But I see the truth behind your eyes—
And all I want to do is cry
You ruined my life
You ruined mine
You called me best friend, Fizz, star of the show
But when I needed you most, you let me go
I lost my act, I lost my limbs
I lost the fire inside my grin
They sewed me back with wires and lies
And I learned to dance with half my spine
But not a word from you, not a note
You just left me there alone
Did you even care at all?
Did you see me take that fall?
Or did the spotlight make you blind—
To the wreck you left behind?
You ruined my life!
You let me fall through the floor
You turned your back and closed the door
You ruined my life!
And still you act like we were fine
Like I'm just bitter, out of line
But I lived the fire you lit that night
And I still feel it when I fight
You ruined my life
You ruined mine
I would've forgiven you
If you’d just said the words
But silence was your choice
And silence always hurts
I was there, reaching out
You were the one who left
And I’ve carried every flame
On what was left of my chest
You ruined my life!
Not just the pain, not just the burns
But every time the world still turns
You ruined my life!
And I wish I didn’t care this much
But I do
I do
I always—
You ruined my life
And you don’t even know what that took from me
