Everyday I go upon the mountain
 
 Climb to the top, but I don't know what for.
 
 It's quiet until I hear a voice from the mountain
 
 It say's beware of what you want...it might want you more!
 
  
  Ashes...my burned hut...
 
 But beautiful like cherries blooming from the hill
 
 One of my patients...just before he died
 
 And just before I left the hospital and began to travel
 
 If he could face death so calmly, how can I face life with
 
 So much doubt? now...i sit on the side of a mountain,
 
 And watch the shadows slowly filling the valleys below.
 
 But not without the doubts that still linger,
 
 And constantly caress the edges of my shadowy interior...
 
 At least a cathater expels impurities,
 
 In a manner of model effeciencies. and my previous profession
 
 Always at least offered that. fully vasectomies in clean and
 
 Well-lit places. a sterile feel, seals from infecti[b,
 
 But not from disease. I often wonder if I left anyone behind? 
 
 But somehow, I just can't remember. only an oddly-defined try
 
 To find a better way. but somehow...i don't believe this is it!
 
 I think about india, and the hindu concept of life,
 
 To be so loved...and understand the space between reality and
 
 Perception. and now...it seems that I live there...