I've waited long enough and I've been putting it all off It's time, I got myself going again I've made enough excuses to last 'til the end of time I've got to move forward with my plans I tell myself that I am not cut out for this I don't like anything that's happening now But when I think of losing everything I've done so far I know I've got to make it work somehow What good is a friend, if you can't look him in the eye? What good is honesty, if it feels like a lie? What good is a dream, if you never even try? I thought that I was free and that I left that guy behind I wanted to believe that someday I'd reach the sky And if I don't press on then I'll watch the new me die And the sadder self survive This isn't as easy as they make it look on TV I'd never have guessed it was so hard And maybe you can hear it in the strain of my voice The perils of it caught me off guard But when you know that burning deep inside of you Is not something so easily ignored You get back on that horse no matter how many times you fall 'Cause it's better than everything you've done before My life is chronicled in lapses of writer's block Opening a window to let my feelings be mocked You ask me why I put myself through this, to you I say If you've ever chased a dream you know I can have it no other way This is me today
