Popular Monster

Yeah

I wake up every morning, with my head up in a daze
I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway
Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah?

I battle with depression, but the question still remains
Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage?
And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
Yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay?

Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day
And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage
And it obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me

'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster

I think I'm going nowhere, like a rat trapped in a maze
Every wall that I knocked down is just a wall that I replace
I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace
How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case?

Oh my God, I keep on stressing, every second that I waste
Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take
But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage
Yeah, it's not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay
Motherfucker, now you got my attention

I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missing
And what if I were to lie, tell you everything is fine?
Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave, I am terrified
I fell asleep at the wheel again
Crashed my car just to feel again
Obliterate me, disintegrate me, annihilate me

'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular fucking monster

Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker

We're sick and tired of wondering
Praying to a God that you don't believe
You're searching for the truth in the lost and found
So the question, I ask is: Where the fuck is your God now?

'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster

I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster