In my restless dreams
I see that town
Silent Hill
You promised you'd take me
There again someday
But you never did
Well I'm alone there now
In our special place
Waiting for you
Waiting for you to
Come to see me
But you never do
And so I wait, wrapped in my
Cocoon of pain and loneliness
I know I've done a terrible
Thing to you. Something you'll
Never forgive me for
I wish I could change
That, but I can't
I feel so pathetic and ugly
Laying here, waiting for you
Every day I stare up at the cracks
In the ceiling and all I can think
About is how unfair it all is
The doctor came today
He told me I could go
Home for a short stay
It's not that I'm getting better
It's just that this may be
My last chance
I think you know what I mean
Even so, I'm glad to be coming
Home. I've missed you terribly
But I'm afraid James
I'm afraid you don't really
Want me to come home
Whenever you come see me
I can tell how hard it is on you
I don't know if you
Hate me or pity me
Or maybe I just disgust you
I'm sorry about that
When I first learned that
I was going to die, I just
Didn't want to accept it
I was so angry all the time and I
Struck out at everyone I loved most
Especially you, James
That's why I understand
If you do hate me
But I want you to
Know this, James
I'll always love you
Even though our life together had
To end like this, I still wouldn't
Trade it for the world. We had
Some wonderful years together
Well this letter had gone on
Too long so I'll say goodbye
I told the nurse to give
This to you after I'm gone
That means that as you read
This, I'm already dead
I can't tell you to remember me
But I can't bear for you to
Forget me
These last few years since I
Became ill, I'm so sorry for
What I did to you, did to us
You've given me so much and
I haven't been able to return
A single thing
That's why I want you to live for yourself now
Do what's best for you, James
James
You made me happy
