Death Messiah

Live a lie
Like we're livin' for heaven's sake
Livin' a lie
Like we're livin' for heaven's sake
It is what it is
If you face your lies
It determines your life

Did protons and electrons create the earth?
Or did Allah meditate and create its birth
Is everyday in this place a curse?
Or should I pray on my knees and embrace its dirt? Yeah
I don't know if there's a reason I'm here, Yeah
I feel the only thing that's driving me is reason and fear, Yeah
And seeing death to me is conceivably near
So I don't give a fuck what you think bout me reaching for beer, Yeah
I don't worry anymore about what my friends do
I have a more urgent matter to attend to
Is there something there bigger when I die and vanish?
That weaves everyone and everything into a canvas
I'm not smart enough to think I have a resolution
I'll never be a man with mediocre constitution
My father told me that blood and power intoxicate
And that tyranny is a product of his father's hate

Live a lie
Like we're livin' for heaven's sake
Livin' a lie
Like we're livin' for heaven's sake
It is what it is
If you face your lies
It determines your life

I recognize that given the sins of the father
I recognize what's built and what stems from the author
Understand man is not a machine
He need a surface and a purpose
And a reason for being
Either way I'm gonna stick with my fam
Regardless of that's a dream of a ridiculous man
And I'm becoming more a different everyday
So naturally all the questions have faded away
Some of the things that I said I hated to say
But blame yourself muthafucka you made it this way
I don't think I would
Even if I was able to stay
I don't think you could
I would sit to the angels and pray
But everybody gotta deal with they self
If they cut another throat for the material wealth
If it's a problem or humane enough to deal with the health
Or are you destine for the darkness of concealing yourself

Live a lie
Like we're livin' for heaven's sake
Livin' a lie
Like we're livin' for heaven's sake
It is what it is
If you face your lies
It determines your life

I'm tryna deal with the 30 years I spent in prison
Not the physical but 'cause of existentialism
I backed myself into a previously dead position
When all I ever had to do was just repent and listen
Why can't everybody leave me alone?
I'm the only one who really need to see that I've grown
You ain't smart enough to see what I know
I'd like to stab myself and let me fuckin bleed till I go
But I'm to scared what would happen on the other side
Tryna fight the good, fight how many of us die
I don't know if I trust the people that hang with me
Is it God or is it the big bang theory?
I know some really good people and they slanged at me
But I don't think that comically that they should hang really
At thirty years old I don't have peace yet
And I ain't get out of the belly of the beast yet

Live a lie
Like we're livin' for heaven's sake
Livin' a lie
Like we're livin' for heaven's sake
It is what it is
If you face your lies
It determines your life
Do not face your heart
The choices that we are
That determine your life
Dark hole fills your heart
Choices are facts
That determine your life
Now what?
Why can't I?
I wouldn't give an effort
Now what?