Spent the winter pretendin’ I’m okay
And I love a sinner ‘cause they look the other way
But I been goin’ under, pretendin’ that I’m okay
I’m a girl of thunder, wishin’ all the world away like
Wine with dinner, I talk but I don’t say
How I been (feelin’)
How I been (feelin’ about, hey!)
All of these (feelings)
Or do you want me now?
How I been (feelin’)
Pretendin’ I’m (dealin’ without, hey!)
But I ain’t (feelin’)
Or do you want me out? Ha!
Was it easy, decidin' you’re not mine?
Do you feel me, do I ever cross your mind?
And I hate that you affect the way I feel at all
I don’t deserve to find my footing just to fall and
Wine with dinner, I talk but I don’t say
How I been (feelin’)
How I been (feelin’ about, hey!)
All of these (feelings)
Or do you want me now?
How I been (feelin’)
Pretendin’ I’m (dealin’ without, hey!)
But I ain’t (feelin’)
Or do you want me out? Ha!
Now, voice, I don’t need you to crack
No tellin’ what you might say that I can’t take back
And I don’t think I can open up the door
I’m afraid to give a voice to what I’m wanting for
So I don’t, or I can’t, or I won’t
But it’s like I’m goin’ crazy
Thinkin’ about, mmm
How I been (feelin’)
How I been (feelin’ about, hey!)
All of these (feelings)
Or do you want me now?
How I been (feelin’)
Pretendin’ I’m (dealin’ without, hey!)
But I ain’t (feelin’)
Or do you want me out? Ha!
