Who was up front?
How many years has my heart
Been running lost, with no direction, no joy, no spark
How long have I been frozen in the dark
Always reminding myself: Looking at the world, it's all an illusion's mark
I remember when I was a kid, the same heavy feeling
Lost, far from my parents, always head-against-the-ceiling
It wasn't a pretty story, no fun to be found
Looking through dictionaries for a word to turn this chorus around
Who walked with me? Who lagged behind? Who was up front?
Who faked a shelter? Who lent a hand? Who beat me down? Who gave me a chance?
It makes no sense anymore, these shallow replies
When I'm already at the rock bottom, blinding my eyes
I just wanna breathe, ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah
This filthy air that tries to take me over, ah-ah-ah-ah-ah
If I am safe, there's nothing to fear
No loss, no pain, no dread of death coming near, oh-eh-eh
Who walked with me? Who lagged behind? Who was up front?
Who faked a shelter? Who lent a hand? Who beat me down? Who gave me a chance?
In the pitch-black night, I just wanna hide
Just to feel the cold, to learn inside
That everywhere you look, there's a reason to be
If it's not for success, it's a lesson for me
Excuse me, please, just leave it as it stands
Everything is ready, slipping through the hands
While they're all glued, staring at the TV screen
Fighting over two sides of the same losing game machine
Thank you so much, I only have to praise
Nothing is pretty, but it's just the end of days
Without the makeup on, you can see the real gaze
How many years has my heart
Been running lost, with no direction, no joy, no spark
How long have I been frozen in the dark
Always reminding myself: Looking at the world, it's all an illusion's mark
So much dirty laundry, now I see it clear
Better to face the truth than to live in a lie out of fear
I prefer this scene without the special effects crew
No stunt double needed, just the real world coming through
It makes no sense anymore, these shallow replies
When I'm already at the rock bottom, blinding my eyes
I just wanna breathe, ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah
This filthy air that tries to take me over, ah-ah-ah-ah-ah
If I am safe, there's nothing to fear
No loss, no pain, no dread of death coming near, oh-eh-eh
Who walked with me?
Who lagged behind?
Who was up front?
