I remember what you said
That shit tore me to pieces
That I was something that you wanted
But not really needed
I used pray for someone like you
Could of sworn I was dreaming
Then I woke up and I realized
You were one of those demons
Now I'm contemplating life
And wondering what's ahead
If it's without you
I might choose to not live it instead
You gave me life and without you
I fucking feel like I'm dead
And as I'm writing this song
I'm currently trapped in my head
And now it's dead weight
Ya it hurts
I don't understand why we just couldn't work
Why?!
Wish that we could speak
But I can't find words
You know that I'm hurt
And you don't care
And that just makes it worse
So when I see you smile
I fill my cup and write another verse
Battling myself and evil thoughts
Tried to spend my life with you
I didn't know what it would cost
Should of never came to Cali
Never opened up my heart
Wish I never found love
'Cause I never would of lost
This this every day
Ask myself why didn't she stay
Looking up to heaven
Asking God to take away this pain
I know that I love you and I know that you don't feel the same
And that's what's killing me inside
And causing me to go insane
Fuck
Said we're too different
Told me we would never work
Always put me second
I would sprint but couldn't finish first
Got to comfortable and let my guard down
When you realized I did
You took my feelings
And you threw 'em in the fucking dirt
Matching tattoos
I can't believe that you convinced me
Now you're gone
And it's the only thing
That keeps you here with me
Ya hate but I love you
You left but still see me
If you needed it right now
I'd still give you my kidney
I'm lost
Can't wanna see another woman I'm blind
And if I do Gods gonna have to
Pry open my eyes
You gon' laugh and say I'm weak
Until you realize and find
That sharing love is the meaning
And whole purpose of life
And when you do and hear this song
You will cry and sing along
And realize that you don't wanna die old and alone
And I'll be here still writing on my phone
Isolated in home
Drunk half-way gone screaming
I still love you!
And wouldn't put no one above you
Even though you fucking lied
Something in me still trusts you
I would die for you, kill for you
End my whole career
They could cut off both my arms
And I'd still find a way to hug you
I don't mean to make this music
But it's something that I must do
Fuck you!
I motherfucking hate that I love you
I only run to you 'cause I can't run from you
You took my child away
He was my fucking son too
I hate that I love you
I hate that I love you
