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Citizen Soldier - Face To Face
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Citizen Soldier - Suicide Note
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Citizen Soldier - I'm Not Okay
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Citizen Soldier - Alone With Myself
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Citizen Soldier - Comparison
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Citizen Soldier - Dead Butterflies
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Citizen Soldier - Devil Inside
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Citizen Soldier - If I Surrender
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Citizen Soldier - Thank You For Hating Me
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Citizen Soldier - Would Anyone Care
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Citizen Soldier - Reason To Live
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Citizen Soldier - Soldier
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Citizen Soldier - Still Breathing
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Citizen Soldier - Strong For Somebody Else
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Citizen Soldier - Wish I Could Cry
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Citizen Soldier - You Are Enough
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Citizen Soldier - Let It Burn
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Citizen Soldier - Madhouse
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Citizen Soldier - Worth It All
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Citizen Soldier - Broken Like Me
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Citizen Soldier - I Hate Myself
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Citizen Soldier - Inner Critic
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Citizen Soldier - Rock Bottom
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Citizen Soldier - Wired for Worthless
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Citizen Soldier - 15 Minutes Of Fame
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Citizen Soldier - Better Than I Used to Be
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Citizen Soldier - Buried Alive
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Citizen Soldier - Caroline
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Citizen Soldier - Dead-End Life
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Citizen Soldier - Golden Weather
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Citizen Soldier - Limit (feat. Lø Spirit)
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Citizen Soldier - My Own Miracle
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Citizen Soldier - Never Ending Nightmare (feat. Kellin Quinn)
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Citizen Soldier - Never Good Enough
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Citizen Soldier - Say Goodbye
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Citizen Soldier - Scarecrow
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Citizen Soldier - This Is Your Sign
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Citizen Soldier - Till Death Do Us Part
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Citizen Soldier - Waiting On The Sun
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Citizen Soldier - Words That Don't Exist
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Citizen Soldier - Afterlife
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Citizen Soldier - Always December
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Citizen Soldier - Bulletproof
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Citizen Soldier - Burden
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Citizen Soldier - Chasing Your Ghost
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Citizen Soldier - Feels Like a Funeral
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Citizen Soldier - Found
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Citizen Soldier - Good Enough For God
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Citizen Soldier - Heavy (feat. SkyDxddy)
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Citizen Soldier - irreplaceable
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Citizen Soldier - It Doesn't Get Better
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Citizen Soldier - It Ends With Me
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Citizen Soldier - Let Me Let Go
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Citizen Soldier - Make Hate To Me
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Citizen Soldier - Monster Made Of Memories
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Citizen Soldier - Sit in Your Shadown
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Citizen Soldier - Still Frame
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Citizen Soldier - Take Me Down
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Citizen Soldier - The liar
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Citizen Soldier - The Other Side Of Pain
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Citizen Soldier - Weight Of The World
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Citizen Soldier - Where Were You
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Citizen Soldier - Without You
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Citizen Soldier - Anyone But Me
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Citizen Soldier - Bitter
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Citizen Soldier - Cannibal
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Citizen Soldier - Death Of Me
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Citizen Soldier - Empty Cup
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Citizen Soldier - Fake Friends
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Citizen Soldier - Feelings Aren’t Forever
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Citizen Soldier - Fever
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Citizen Soldier - Hallelujah (I'm Not Dead)
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Citizen Soldier - I Believe You
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Citizen Soldier - ICU
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Citizen Soldier - Isolate
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Citizen Soldier - Just Be Happy
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Citizen Soldier - Mess Of Me
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Citizen Soldier - Out of Your Gravity
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Citizen Soldier - Pandora's Box
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Citizen Soldier - Pretend My Pain Away
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Citizen Soldier - Say Nothing (feat. LEXX)
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Citizen Soldier - Stronger Than My Storm
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Citizen Soldier - Through Hell
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Citizen Soldier - Too Loud
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Citizen Soldier - Victim Or Survivor
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Citizen Soldier - Bedroom Ceiling
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Citizen Soldier - Better Off Broken
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Citizen Soldier - Better Place
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Citizen Soldier - Black Hole Brain
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Citizen Soldier - Deathbed
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Citizen Soldier - Different Kind of Animal
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Citizen Soldier - Easy's Never Been This Hard
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Citizen Soldier - Everybody Hates You
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Citizen Soldier - Everyday Hero
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Citizen Soldier - Figure Me Out
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Citizen Soldier - First Blood
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Citizen Soldier - Forever Damned
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Citizen Soldier - Give Up To Ghosts
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Citizen Soldier - Good Old Days
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Citizen Soldier - Gunshot Lullabies
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Citizen Soldier - Hand Me Down
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Citizen Soldier - Hope It Haunts You
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Citizen Soldier - Hospital Bed
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Citizen Soldier - If These Scars Could Speak
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Citizen Soldier - In Pieces
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Citizen Soldier - Invisible
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Citizen Soldier - Kill My Memory
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Citizen Soldier - Letdown
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Citizen Soldier - Life Support
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Citizen Soldier - Live Again
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Citizen Soldier - Made By Misery
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Citizen Soldier - My Little Secret
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Citizen Soldier - Numb To Everything
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Citizen Soldier - Runaway From Myself
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Citizen Soldier - Sacred
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Citizen Soldier - Save Me From My Angels
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Citizen Soldier - Save Your Story
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Citizen Soldier - Screaming In Silence
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Citizen Soldier - Tattoos
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Citizen Soldier - The Cage
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Citizen Soldier - Therapy
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Citizen Soldier - This Is Not a Phase
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Citizen Soldier - Unbreakable
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Citizen Soldier - Unsaid
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Citizen Soldier - Wanted
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Citizen Soldier - Who I Am
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Citizen Soldier - Worst In Me
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Citizen Soldier - You Are Not Your Past
Better Off Broken
Citizen Soldier
I step in your office
Hear: How was your week?
How do you feel?
It's hard to be honest
All I can think about Is shutting back down
What's wrong with me?
I should be better by now
You tell me be patient
That it'll be worth it
All the suppression, session by session
Pulled to the surface
All of the demons through the years I've bottled up
But I'm exhausted
And the past is too much
I'm not ready, it's too heavy
I'm not ready
Why is healing so hard?
And why does numb feel like my only friend?
'Cause when I swallow my scars
Then I don't have to feel it all again
I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open
Am I better off, better off broken?
Don't wanna breathe deep
I'm tired of mindful
When even the smallest things in my life
Are making me spiral
I had no say, inherited a hemorrhaged heart
It's so unfair that every day is this hard
I wanna be normal
For so many reasons
Like I'll never have the time that I need for anger and grieving
Basic functioning's becoming such a chore
What would I be like
If they cared a little more?
I'm not ready, it's too heavy
Stop pushing me, just let me be empty
Why is healing so hard?
And why does numb feel like my only friend?
'Cause when I swallow my scars
Then I don't have to feel it all again
I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open
Am I better off, better off broken?
'Cause fifty minutes every week Is not enough for what I need
To give me evidence
I'll shake my skeletons
I know you say these thoughts are lies
But I don't wanna live this tired
With very little proof
And everything to lose
I'm scared you're getting sick of me
So tell me honestly
Why is healing so hard?
And why does numb feel like my only friend?
'Cause when I swallow my scars
I don't have to feel
Why is healing so hard?
And why does numb feel like my only friend?
'Cause when I swallow my scars
Then I don't have to feel it all again
I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open
Am I better off, better off broken?
Am I better off broken?
Better off broken?
Am I better off, better off broken?