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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
How I Feel
La Dispute
I don't sleep much at all these days, I say it's cold,
Besides, I'm broken.
Hard as earth the love of the past,
The worth of the world has frozen
Still.
Like the sheet of ice collecting on the windshield of my car.
Where I caught my reflection frozen in the glass,
A perfect broken image of the future I'd envisioned in the past-
Corrupted by fate now, fractured, and fading away.
Replace all I felt promised to me.
To be the one who figured it out,
Who knew what to do,
Who knew how to feel and
Felt that
Love of the past,
The worth of the world,
Just set it ablaze and
Thaw me out.
Dim lit in a room dark red, where I said,
"Can't seem to break off from the way I felt, but
I guess you understand, man. We had no chance.
I'm tired of fighting with the hand I've been dealt.
So, I take the cards they give me
And keep my protest on the inside of my mouth.
If the best I can do ain't gonna stop what's coming,
What's the point in trying to change how the hand plays out?
Don't we all just die?
When you looked at the light
Did it hurt your eyes?
When you looked at the light
Did it hurt you
Like it hurt me?
