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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
La Dispute
Still the breeze
Lay down in the heat and breathe out
Dishes in the sink
Garden overgrown with weeds
Everything in me now
Anything to keep you near
Anything to keep you
Standing in the door
Don't leave
Pull down every window penitently
We've grown weak
In heavy summer heat
Stagnant with your unmet needs
Please come back, sweetheart
Please, I need this
Please don't leave, you said you're mine
You said: It's all fine
Said, It's my fault
I believed it every time you said
You'd take the time to learn
You'd put the extra work in first
Keep promises you made
Change how you behave
Then everything you said reversed
All the things you did went backwards
Planted seeds there
Never acted
Once they bloomed, now they grow downward in the dirt, entombed
How else is there to say
That last night when I slept, I dreamt about a room, standing in the light
And everyone was there but you
And honestly?
I love you but it felt so good
Everyone was laughing
Everyone at least passed through
Everyone we know and not a single one
Remembered you
Anymore
Or any time before
The members of your family too
Everyone you loved
Forgot or never met you
And I dreamt about it too
Walking down the hall
Came upon a door
Opened to a room where
You and all my friends were
Standing in the light
I tried to get inside
Fumbled with the key
And turned it
Spun in circles
Through the glass
I saw their faces
Thrown back in laughter
And it rattled in my head
I woke up in the bed
I pulled you close to me
And slept
And you're getting up to leave
I'm standing at the door
I'm staring at the creek
There's water underneath the floor
I'm an unresolved chord
A line left incomplete
A room without a key
I lost it, but you see I kick and I scream at the door
I'm a garden full of weeds
A dish left in the sink
A room without a breeze
The suffocating heat around me
In the ground now
Grown all backwards
Upside down and inside out
Let me go
Grow high, the garden for you
Up the wall to our window and through
In bed where I slept and I dreamt of a room with my friends
I could not get in
Stronger in the stem now
Let me go
Crawl down that hallway again
Climb at the end
To the glass on the door
To see you and my friends
To let me see the room
To let me then bloom
Please, let the flowers open up before I'm through
