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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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Halfway to the middle thawed I wasn’t doing all that great
Had I cut my hair short?
Had I grown my beard out long?
Had I gone to school or?
Why do all my plans fall through?
There’s a leak in the basement
Stupid permanent estrangement
Casement windows need glazing
Hinges and arms need be replaced
All the way at the edge I said I think
That we should head back
What if now the ice cracked?
Think I felt it bend
We took opposite steps
Tried to even the stress
Picked a safe direction but
You never know the way the ice thins
Half-asleep in dreams where
Ceilings start collapsing
Free fall through the roof beams
Get startled back awake
Before you hit the pavement
Floor of the foundation
Water in the basement
Bodies in the lake
Don’t panic I could hear you saying as I fell through
Blackness complete down waiting till my feet touched ground
At the bottom they finally did
First reaction was this is it
Next thought was just stay calm kick up
And save your phone
Because I wanted to tell you
Because I thought you should know
Because I thought it might scare you
To see me under the ice
Make you remember you cared for me
What would you do if I died?
Would you fly out for my funeral?
Get too drunk at my wake?
Would you make a scene then?
Climb in and try to resuscitate me?
I was on the ice and I was underwater
I was getting pulled out, I was in my wet clothes
Stumble on the walk back, someone stoked the fire at camp
I was by the flames trying to get my body warm
I was standing naked checking to see if my phone still worked
I will cut my hair short
Trust me, I will
I will let my beard go
Trust me, I will
I will never tempt fate
Not once, I swear
I will never trust ice
I will never trust a thing
