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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
La Dispute
Halfway to the middle thawed I wasn’t doing all that great
Had I cut my hair short?
Had I grown my beard out long?
Had I gone to school or?
Why do all my plans fall through?
There’s a leak in the basement
Stupid permanent estrangement
Casement windows need glazing
Hinges and arms need be replaced
All the way at the edge I said I think
That we should head back
What if now the ice cracked?
Think I felt it bend
We took opposite steps
Tried to even the stress
Picked a safe direction but
You never know the way the ice thins
Half-asleep in dreams where
Ceilings start collapsing
Free fall through the roof beams
Get startled back awake
Before you hit the pavement
Floor of the foundation
Water in the basement
Bodies in the lake
Don’t panic I could hear you saying as I fell through
Blackness complete down waiting till my feet touched ground
At the bottom they finally did
First reaction was this is it
Next thought was just stay calm kick up
And save your phone
Because I wanted to tell you
Because I thought you should know
Because I thought it might scare you
To see me under the ice
Make you remember you cared for me
What would you do if I died?
Would you fly out for my funeral?
Get too drunk at my wake?
Would you make a scene then?
Climb in and try to resuscitate me?
I was on the ice and I was underwater
I was getting pulled out, I was in my wet clothes
Stumble on the walk back, someone stoked the fire at camp
I was by the flames trying to get my body warm
I was standing naked checking to see if my phone still worked
I will cut my hair short
Trust me, I will
I will let my beard go
Trust me, I will
I will never tempt fate
Not once, I swear
I will never trust ice
I will never trust a thing
