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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
Steve
La Dispute
Pull it upward
Turn the wheel hard
In Danny's car drifting in the parking lot
Midnight at the church
How we'd float on in snowfall
On ice sheets on the asphalt
In circles turned, enclosing underneath
And in the backseat, you and I
Saw Calvary spinning after in the back of us
Caught you in the glass
Reflected by the streetlights as we passed
I noticed the expressions didn't match
Laughter on the one
Contrasted sadness
The look in your eyes
Against your hands
The ceiling and
Your seatbelt off
Dependent on your strength to anchor you
So forceful was the curve
Sent careening into me first
When Danny sideways crashed into the curb
That's the first thing that came back the day I heard
And we would push a little further every time
Breaking into buildings overnight when we got bored
Bent on cheating death
Turned left on every red
The cars ahead slamming on the brakes
We found purpose in laughing after danger
A curse we shouted out
Shot a gun inside the house once
Leaned over the edge of the rooftop
My belt held in the back
Seven stories up to write my name
You carved Die Young with a pen
In the skin below your neck
To keep your recklessness closer to the chest
A reminder to reject
A perpetual hanging threat
A promise you kept now
True to yourself
To the end
In a sense
I suspect you always felt that way
No exceptions for the time you spent in ours
And in mine
And you drifted far away from us in time
Out of mind
Out of sight
What else is there to say now but goodbye?
And the last time I saw you
After years we spent apart
You came to my apartment just to talk
Dressed in a suit
Said your life had gotten better
Even then I wasn't sure it was the truth
When Danny called to tell me
I didn't know how you had been
About the benchmarks you'd met in your life
The counterweights to tip
Keep equal weight on either side
The anguish of existing unrequested
And the joy to be alive
And I know now the truth
That a lie is one too
That some things unsaid
Really aren't in the end
Chief of my regrets?
When he told me how you'd died
I'm ashamed I felt surprised
By your own hand at night
Fired once and survived
And then somehow again
I saw Calvary behind you in the light
Scattered your reflection in the doctrine
And I almost believed
We would enter in elected when we died
Carried by the you and the I in the TULIP despite how hard we tried
Both our names circled twice
You and I would get ushered triumphant
Into heaven and the light
And you reached to find the brake
Nothing there to pull
To be pulled back with grace
From the way you chose to bring yourself relief
Backwards
Forwards
On the ice
Circles spinning helpless at the edge
There again
You and I
What else is there to say now but goodbye?
