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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
A Departure
La Dispute
Night fell on me writing this and i ran out of paper
So i crossed the name out at the top of the page.
Not sure why i'm even writing this.
But i guess it feels right.
It sort of feels like i have to-like an exorcism.
I guess that makes me sound crazy but that's alright.
Lately i feel like i might be, not that i've heard any voices or anything.
Just like that everyday kind, where you forget things you shouldn't
And you think too much about death.
Maybe you know what i'm talking about.
Or maybe you would have known?
Or had known?
Is it once knew?
I don't know what tense to use.
I know i never used to feel like this.
I used to never think of death or hear voices.
I used to feel like everything was perfectly in order, a normal life, but i guess then came a departure.
That i know you understand (or would've understood?).
I guess things changed after that, and i'm mostly scared now.
But it's there in the stories, or whatever they are.
You can see it.
Anybody could if they could look.
I wrote some notes in the margins explaining it.
The rest is in between lines or in the fine print.
First, the feeling of abandonment, then trying to cope.
Then death and hope and the thing itself, waiting for me.
It's all there in the pages ahead of here.
It's there waiting for you.
Or for me. i'm not sure.
The whole story.
