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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
A Poem
La Dispute
I had a reason for the writing, but trying to exorcise my demons didn't work.
To try to rid me of the worry and to purge you out of wonder for the future and the hurt.
I wrote a poem:
I'm increasingly aware i've been painting things in gray,
I'm increasingly alarmed by the pain,
I'm increasingly alive to every cloud up in the sky,
I'm increasingly afraid it's going to rain.
See, lately i've hated me for over-playing pain.
For always pointing fingers out at everyone
But who in fact is guilty and for picking at my scabs
Like they could never break but they can
And they will and i'll spill like a leak in the basement,
A drunk in the night choir,
Just slur all those words to make deadbeat that sweet old refrain,
Self-inflicting my pain and therein lies the real shame:
I heard when they were picking through the rubble
Finding limbs, they sang hymns, but now what of what i sing?
The worry, the wonder, the shortness of days,
The replacement for purpose,
The things swept away by
The worry, the wonder, my slightness of frame,
The replacements for feeling,
The casual lay. and
The worst of the wildlife wears clothes and can pray and
The worry, the wonder, for three meals a day.
Only death unimpeded, not slowing it's pace,
Brings that petty, old worry and wonder away.
