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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
A Poem
La Dispute
I had a reason for the writing, but trying to exorcise my demons didn't work.
To try to rid me of the worry and to purge you out of wonder for the future and the hurt.
I wrote a poem:
I'm increasingly aware i've been painting things in gray,
I'm increasingly alarmed by the pain,
I'm increasingly alive to every cloud up in the sky,
I'm increasingly afraid it's going to rain.
See, lately i've hated me for over-playing pain.
For always pointing fingers out at everyone
But who in fact is guilty and for picking at my scabs
Like they could never break but they can
And they will and i'll spill like a leak in the basement,
A drunk in the night choir,
Just slur all those words to make deadbeat that sweet old refrain,
Self-inflicting my pain and therein lies the real shame:
I heard when they were picking through the rubble
Finding limbs, they sang hymns, but now what of what i sing?
The worry, the wonder, the shortness of days,
The replacement for purpose,
The things swept away by
The worry, the wonder, my slightness of frame,
The replacements for feeling,
The casual lay. and
The worst of the wildlife wears clothes and can pray and
The worry, the wonder, for three meals a day.
Only death unimpeded, not slowing it's pace,
Brings that petty, old worry and wonder away.
