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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
A Poem
La Dispute
I had a reason for the writing, but trying to exorcise my demons didn't work.
To try to rid me of the worry and to purge you out of wonder for the future and the hurt.
I wrote a poem:
I'm increasingly aware i've been painting things in gray,
I'm increasingly alarmed by the pain,
I'm increasingly alive to every cloud up in the sky,
I'm increasingly afraid it's going to rain.
See, lately i've hated me for over-playing pain.
For always pointing fingers out at everyone
But who in fact is guilty and for picking at my scabs
Like they could never break but they can
And they will and i'll spill like a leak in the basement,
A drunk in the night choir,
Just slur all those words to make deadbeat that sweet old refrain,
Self-inflicting my pain and therein lies the real shame:
I heard when they were picking through the rubble
Finding limbs, they sang hymns, but now what of what i sing?
The worry, the wonder, the shortness of days,
The replacement for purpose,
The things swept away by
The worry, the wonder, my slightness of frame,
The replacements for feeling,
The casual lay. and
The worst of the wildlife wears clothes and can pray and
The worry, the wonder, for three meals a day.
Only death unimpeded, not slowing it's pace,
Brings that petty, old worry and wonder away.
