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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
- 2
La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
- 30
La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - A Poem
- 33
La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Fairmount
- 35
La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Future Wars
- 38
La Dispute - Said the King To the River
- 39
La Dispute - The Castle Builders
- 40
La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
- 41
La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
- 45
La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
- 47
La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - Last Blues
- 53
La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
- 54
La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
- 55
La Dispute - Objects In Space
- 56
La Dispute - Only Everything Below
- 57
La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
- 58
La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
- 59
La Dispute - Saturation Diver
- 60
La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
- 61
La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
- 62
La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Steve
- 64
La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
- 66
La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
- 67
La Dispute - Thirteen
- 68
La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
- 69
La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
- 70
La Dispute - You Ascendant
- 71
La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
- 73
La Dispute - Autofiction detail
- 74
La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
- 79
La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
How I Feel
La Dispute
I don't sleep much at all these days, I say it's cold,
Besides, I'm broken.
Hard as earth the love of the past,
The worth of the world has frozen
Still.
Like the sheet of ice collecting on the windshield of my car.
Where I caught my reflection frozen in the glass,
A perfect broken image of the future I'd envisioned in the past-
Corrupted by fate now, fractured, and fading away.
Replace all I felt promised to me.
To be the one who figured it out,
Who knew what to do,
Who knew how to feel and
Felt that
Love of the past,
The worth of the world,
Just set it ablaze and
Thaw me out.
Dim lit in a room dark red, where I said,
"Can't seem to break off from the way I felt, but
I guess you understand, man. We had no chance.
I'm tired of fighting with the hand I've been dealt.
So, I take the cards they give me
And keep my protest on the inside of my mouth.
If the best I can do ain't gonna stop what's coming,
What's the point in trying to change how the hand plays out?
Don't we all just die?
When you looked at the light
Did it hurt your eyes?
When you looked at the light
Did it hurt you
Like it hurt me?
