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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
La Dispute
Old themes and the murmur of half-dreams whisper seductively and
Stage scenes.
It's fear fiction, these visions, caught somewhere between delusion and prophesy.
What i haven't done, what i've wanted to, and what i fear you have
Becomes reality here.
Bright lights in the young night keep to the beat.
A classic party scene, crowded and interesting.
No love, no life, no history.
Just touch, just chemistry, just
A roaring undercurrent simple and sensory.
Young bodies, warm skin, perfect symmetry and
It's a moment, harmless. it's energy.
It's like medicine,
It's self-discovery.
See, all the secrets i keep, why are they secrets?
It's only temporary, that fleeting feeling of warmth,
Just a flash before the line gets blurry,
Between a longing for more than what the body wants now and
What the body wants now more than anything.
Was it integrity that kept my hands to myself or
Just the thought of getting too far ahead of you?
Was it that i got too tired of the consequence?
Or was i just scared?
I only know i never wanted to get left behind.
No pauses, not a second guess.
First a swaying then a stumble then a swagger.
They're just movements towards feeling. it doesn't matter
Neither hesitates to carry on a kind of energy,
Sweat and block out everything to
Find every aperture and compel the animal parts.
Fan flames, taste fruit, taste bitter fruit.
Just trying to learn how all the wires in the body work.
Just trying to feel it out, it's like medicine.
Trap the healing in whatever bed they end up in.
I want to feel it out. i want to know how it works.
I want to know if it was worth it to worry,
About the ghosts i feared would haunt the memory,
About the damage that i'm sure the fear has done to me now.
I want to know what it is in me that won't follow through
Those nights the instinct takes a hold of me and pushes too.
Maybe it's only that i've never gotten over you.
Or am i still scared?
I see the church steps, a vision. is there fiction in this one too?
It's true, i've made a tale of it here, still, it's a little unclear who's been haunting who.
And time can be such a funny thing, always moving to the future
Glorifying the past and amplifying the pain in frames and glass.
So was our touch half as sacred as i've made it seem
Or just another fabrication of a half-dream?
Just those chemicals, the adolescent love.
Just us trying to grasp onto meaning,
Onto a purpose,
Onto a sense that
Something spiritual releases when the feeling hits.
And when the feeling hits.
And in that moment sparks and harps play out
A sweeping melody through fog and fantasy
And in that moment there's an honesty instinctive and pure but
It departs like it came, rapid and bearing no more
Than fleeting ecstasy of natural harmony.
They fear the notes being played and try to sing along.
Don't be ashamed, be free to the feeling. don't be ashamed, keep feeling.
But find it: a body that makes sense.
I've felt it.
