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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I See Everything
- 31
La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Departure
- 39
La Dispute - A Poem
- 40
La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Fairmount
- 47
La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Future Wars
- 55
La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
- 56
La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
- 57
La Dispute - How I Feel
- 58
La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
- 59
La Dispute - Last Blues
- 60
La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
- 61
La Dispute - Objects In Space
- 62
La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
- 64
La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
- 65
La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
- 67
La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
- 68
La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
- 69
La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
- 70
La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
- 72
La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
- 74
La Dispute - Steve
- 75
La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
- 82
La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
- 86
La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
- 90
La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
How I Feel
La Dispute
I don't sleep much at all these days, I say it's cold,
Besides, I'm broken.
Hard as earth the love of the past,
The worth of the world has frozen
Still.
Like the sheet of ice collecting on the windshield of my car.
Where I caught my reflection frozen in the glass,
A perfect broken image of the future I'd envisioned in the past-
Corrupted by fate now, fractured, and fading away.
Replace all I felt promised to me.
To be the one who figured it out,
Who knew what to do,
Who knew how to feel and
Felt that
Love of the past,
The worth of the world,
Just set it ablaze and
Thaw me out.
Dim lit in a room dark red, where I said,
"Can't seem to break off from the way I felt, but
I guess you understand, man. We had no chance.
I'm tired of fighting with the hand I've been dealt.
So, I take the cards they give me
And keep my protest on the inside of my mouth.
If the best I can do ain't gonna stop what's coming,
What's the point in trying to change how the hand plays out?
Don't we all just die?
When you looked at the light
Did it hurt your eyes?
When you looked at the light
Did it hurt you
Like it hurt me?
