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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
A Poem
La Dispute
I had a reason for the writing, but trying to exorcise my demons didn't work.
To try to rid me of the worry and to purge you out of wonder for the future and the hurt.
I wrote a poem:
I'm increasingly aware i've been painting things in gray,
I'm increasingly alarmed by the pain,
I'm increasingly alive to every cloud up in the sky,
I'm increasingly afraid it's going to rain.
See, lately i've hated me for over-playing pain.
For always pointing fingers out at everyone
But who in fact is guilty and for picking at my scabs
Like they could never break but they can
And they will and i'll spill like a leak in the basement,
A drunk in the night choir,
Just slur all those words to make deadbeat that sweet old refrain,
Self-inflicting my pain and therein lies the real shame:
I heard when they were picking through the rubble
Finding limbs, they sang hymns, but now what of what i sing?
The worry, the wonder, the shortness of days,
The replacement for purpose,
The things swept away by
The worry, the wonder, my slightness of frame,
The replacements for feeling,
The casual lay. and
The worst of the wildlife wears clothes and can pray and
The worry, the wonder, for three meals a day.
Only death unimpeded, not slowing it's pace,
Brings that petty, old worry and wonder away.
