- 1
La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
- 2
La Dispute - King Park
- 3
La Dispute - Such Small Hands
- 4
La Dispute - Andria
- 5
La Dispute - Damaged Goods
- 6
La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
- 7
La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
- 8
La Dispute - Said the King To the River
- 9
La Dispute - You And I In Unison
- 10
La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
- 11
La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
- 12
La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
- 13
La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
- 14
La Dispute - A Poem
- 15
La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
- 16
La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
- 17
La Dispute - Fairmount
- 18
La Dispute - Fulton Street I
- 19
La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
- 20
La Dispute - Stay Happy There
- 21
La Dispute - A
- 22
La Dispute - A Departure
- 23
La Dispute - A Letter
- 24
La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
- 25
La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
- 26
La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
- 27
La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
- 28
La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
- 29
La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
- 30
La Dispute - Future Wars
- 31
La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
- 32
La Dispute - I See Everything
- 33
La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
- 34
La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
- 35
La Dispute - Nine
- 36
La Dispute - Objects In Space
- 37
La Dispute - The Castle Builders
- 38
La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
- 39
La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
- 40
La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
- 41
La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
- 42
La Dispute - Twelve
- 43
La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
- 44
La Dispute - You Ascendant
- 45
La Dispute - 35
- 46
La Dispute - A Broken Jar
- 47
La Dispute - Autofiction detail
- 48
La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
- 49
La Dispute - Eight
- 50
La Dispute - Eleven
- 51
La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
- 52
La Dispute - Five
- 53
La Dispute - Four
- 54
La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
- 55
La Dispute - How I Feel
- 56
La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
- 57
La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
- 58
La Dispute - Last Blues
- 59
La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
- 60
La Dispute - One
- 61
La Dispute - Only Everything Below
- 62
La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
- 63
La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
- 64
La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
- 65
La Dispute - Seven
- 66
La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
- 67
La Dispute - Six
- 68
La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
- 69
La Dispute - Steve
- 70
La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
- 71
La Dispute - Ten
- 72
La Dispute - The Child We Lost
- 73
La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
- 74
La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
- 75
La Dispute - Thirteen
- 76
La Dispute - Three
- 77
La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
- 78
La Dispute - Two
- 79
La Dispute - Untitled
- 80
La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
A Poem
La Dispute
I had a reason for the writing, but trying to exorcise my demons didn't work.
To try to rid me of the worry and to purge you out of wonder for the future and the hurt.
I wrote a poem:
I'm increasingly aware i've been painting things in gray,
I'm increasingly alarmed by the pain,
I'm increasingly alive to every cloud up in the sky,
I'm increasingly afraid it's going to rain.
See, lately i've hated me for over-playing pain.
For always pointing fingers out at everyone
But who in fact is guilty and for picking at my scabs
Like they could never break but they can
And they will and i'll spill like a leak in the basement,
A drunk in the night choir,
Just slur all those words to make deadbeat that sweet old refrain,
Self-inflicting my pain and therein lies the real shame:
I heard when they were picking through the rubble
Finding limbs, they sang hymns, but now what of what i sing?
The worry, the wonder, the shortness of days,
The replacement for purpose,
The things swept away by
The worry, the wonder, my slightness of frame,
The replacements for feeling,
The casual lay. and
The worst of the wildlife wears clothes and can pray and
The worry, the wonder, for three meals a day.
Only death unimpeded, not slowing it's pace,
Brings that petty, old worry and wonder away.
