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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
A Poem
La Dispute
I had a reason for the writing, but trying to exorcise my demons didn't work.
To try to rid me of the worry and to purge you out of wonder for the future and the hurt.
I wrote a poem:
I'm increasingly aware i've been painting things in gray,
I'm increasingly alarmed by the pain,
I'm increasingly alive to every cloud up in the sky,
I'm increasingly afraid it's going to rain.
See, lately i've hated me for over-playing pain.
For always pointing fingers out at everyone
But who in fact is guilty and for picking at my scabs
Like they could never break but they can
And they will and i'll spill like a leak in the basement,
A drunk in the night choir,
Just slur all those words to make deadbeat that sweet old refrain,
Self-inflicting my pain and therein lies the real shame:
I heard when they were picking through the rubble
Finding limbs, they sang hymns, but now what of what i sing?
The worry, the wonder, the shortness of days,
The replacement for purpose,
The things swept away by
The worry, the wonder, my slightness of frame,
The replacements for feeling,
The casual lay. and
The worst of the wildlife wears clothes and can pray and
The worry, the wonder, for three meals a day.
Only death unimpeded, not slowing it's pace,
Brings that petty, old worry and wonder away.
