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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
A Poem
La Dispute
I had a reason for the writing, but trying to exorcise my demons didn't work.
To try to rid me of the worry and to purge you out of wonder for the future and the hurt.
I wrote a poem:
I'm increasingly aware i've been painting things in gray,
I'm increasingly alarmed by the pain,
I'm increasingly alive to every cloud up in the sky,
I'm increasingly afraid it's going to rain.
See, lately i've hated me for over-playing pain.
For always pointing fingers out at everyone
But who in fact is guilty and for picking at my scabs
Like they could never break but they can
And they will and i'll spill like a leak in the basement,
A drunk in the night choir,
Just slur all those words to make deadbeat that sweet old refrain,
Self-inflicting my pain and therein lies the real shame:
I heard when they were picking through the rubble
Finding limbs, they sang hymns, but now what of what i sing?
The worry, the wonder, the shortness of days,
The replacement for purpose,
The things swept away by
The worry, the wonder, my slightness of frame,
The replacements for feeling,
The casual lay. and
The worst of the wildlife wears clothes and can pray and
The worry, the wonder, for three meals a day.
Only death unimpeded, not slowing it's pace,
Brings that petty, old worry and wonder away.
