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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Untitled
A Poem
La Dispute
I had a reason for the writing, but trying to exorcise my demons didn't work.
To try to rid me of the worry and to purge you out of wonder for the future and the hurt.
I wrote a poem:
I'm increasingly aware i've been painting things in gray,
I'm increasingly alarmed by the pain,
I'm increasingly alive to every cloud up in the sky,
I'm increasingly afraid it's going to rain.
See, lately i've hated me for over-playing pain.
For always pointing fingers out at everyone
But who in fact is guilty and for picking at my scabs
Like they could never break but they can
And they will and i'll spill like a leak in the basement,
A drunk in the night choir,
Just slur all those words to make deadbeat that sweet old refrain,
Self-inflicting my pain and therein lies the real shame:
I heard when they were picking through the rubble
Finding limbs, they sang hymns, but now what of what i sing?
The worry, the wonder, the shortness of days,
The replacement for purpose,
The things swept away by
The worry, the wonder, my slightness of frame,
The replacements for feeling,
The casual lay. and
The worst of the wildlife wears clothes and can pray and
The worry, the wonder, for three meals a day.
Only death unimpeded, not slowing it's pace,
Brings that petty, old worry and wonder away.
