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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
A Departure
La Dispute
Night fell on me writing this and i ran out of paper
So i crossed the name out at the top of the page.
Not sure why i'm even writing this.
But i guess it feels right.
It sort of feels like i have to-like an exorcism.
I guess that makes me sound crazy but that's alright.
Lately i feel like i might be, not that i've heard any voices or anything.
Just like that everyday kind, where you forget things you shouldn't
And you think too much about death.
Maybe you know what i'm talking about.
Or maybe you would have known?
Or had known?
Is it once knew?
I don't know what tense to use.
I know i never used to feel like this.
I used to never think of death or hear voices.
I used to feel like everything was perfectly in order, a normal life, but i guess then came a departure.
That i know you understand (or would've understood?).
I guess things changed after that, and i'm mostly scared now.
But it's there in the stories, or whatever they are.
You can see it.
Anybody could if they could look.
I wrote some notes in the margins explaining it.
The rest is in between lines or in the fine print.
First, the feeling of abandonment, then trying to cope.
Then death and hope and the thing itself, waiting for me.
It's all there in the pages ahead of here.
It's there waiting for you.
Or for me. i'm not sure.
The whole story.
