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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
A Departure
La Dispute
Night fell on me writing this and i ran out of paper
So i crossed the name out at the top of the page.
Not sure why i'm even writing this.
But i guess it feels right.
It sort of feels like i have to-like an exorcism.
I guess that makes me sound crazy but that's alright.
Lately i feel like i might be, not that i've heard any voices or anything.
Just like that everyday kind, where you forget things you shouldn't
And you think too much about death.
Maybe you know what i'm talking about.
Or maybe you would have known?
Or had known?
Is it once knew?
I don't know what tense to use.
I know i never used to feel like this.
I used to never think of death or hear voices.
I used to feel like everything was perfectly in order, a normal life, but i guess then came a departure.
That i know you understand (or would've understood?).
I guess things changed after that, and i'm mostly scared now.
But it's there in the stories, or whatever they are.
You can see it.
Anybody could if they could look.
I wrote some notes in the margins explaining it.
The rest is in between lines or in the fine print.
First, the feeling of abandonment, then trying to cope.
Then death and hope and the thing itself, waiting for me.
It's all there in the pages ahead of here.
It's there waiting for you.
Or for me. i'm not sure.
The whole story.
