- 1
La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
- 8
La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
- 9
La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
- 11
La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
- 12
La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
- 22
La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
- 29
La Dispute - Objects In Space
- 30
La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Departure
- 36
La Dispute - A Letter
- 37
La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
- 38
La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Eight
- 40
La Dispute - Eleven
- 41
La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
- 42
La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Four
- 45
La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
- 46
La Dispute - Future Wars
- 47
La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
- 48
La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
- 49
La Dispute - How I Feel
- 50
La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
- 51
La Dispute - I See Everything
- 52
La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
- 53
La Dispute - Last Blues
- 54
La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Nine
- 56
La Dispute - Only Everything Below
- 57
La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
- 58
La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
- 59
La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
- 60
La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Six
- 62
La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
- 63
La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Steve
- 65
La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
- 67
La Dispute - The Child We Lost
- 68
La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
- 69
La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
- 70
La Dispute - Thirteen
- 71
La Dispute - Three
- 72
La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
- 73
La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
- 74
La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
- 77
La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
- 78
La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
- 79
La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
A Departure
La Dispute
Night fell on me writing this and i ran out of paper
So i crossed the name out at the top of the page.
Not sure why i'm even writing this.
But i guess it feels right.
It sort of feels like i have to-like an exorcism.
I guess that makes me sound crazy but that's alright.
Lately i feel like i might be, not that i've heard any voices or anything.
Just like that everyday kind, where you forget things you shouldn't
And you think too much about death.
Maybe you know what i'm talking about.
Or maybe you would have known?
Or had known?
Is it once knew?
I don't know what tense to use.
I know i never used to feel like this.
I used to never think of death or hear voices.
I used to feel like everything was perfectly in order, a normal life, but i guess then came a departure.
That i know you understand (or would've understood?).
I guess things changed after that, and i'm mostly scared now.
But it's there in the stories, or whatever they are.
You can see it.
Anybody could if they could look.
I wrote some notes in the margins explaining it.
The rest is in between lines or in the fine print.
First, the feeling of abandonment, then trying to cope.
Then death and hope and the thing itself, waiting for me.
It's all there in the pages ahead of here.
It's there waiting for you.
Or for me. i'm not sure.
The whole story.
