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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - A Poem
- 39
La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - Four
- 50
La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
- 55
La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
- 56
La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
- 57
La Dispute - Last Blues
- 58
La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
- 64
La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
- 69
La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
A Departure
La Dispute
Night fell on me writing this and i ran out of paper
So i crossed the name out at the top of the page.
Not sure why i'm even writing this.
But i guess it feels right.
It sort of feels like i have to-like an exorcism.
I guess that makes me sound crazy but that's alright.
Lately i feel like i might be, not that i've heard any voices or anything.
Just like that everyday kind, where you forget things you shouldn't
And you think too much about death.
Maybe you know what i'm talking about.
Or maybe you would have known?
Or had known?
Is it once knew?
I don't know what tense to use.
I know i never used to feel like this.
I used to never think of death or hear voices.
I used to feel like everything was perfectly in order, a normal life, but i guess then came a departure.
That i know you understand (or would've understood?).
I guess things changed after that, and i'm mostly scared now.
But it's there in the stories, or whatever they are.
You can see it.
Anybody could if they could look.
I wrote some notes in the margins explaining it.
The rest is in between lines or in the fine print.
First, the feeling of abandonment, then trying to cope.
Then death and hope and the thing itself, waiting for me.
It's all there in the pages ahead of here.
It's there waiting for you.
Or for me. i'm not sure.
The whole story.
