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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
A Departure
La Dispute
Night fell on me writing this and i ran out of paper
So i crossed the name out at the top of the page.
Not sure why i'm even writing this.
But i guess it feels right.
It sort of feels like i have to-like an exorcism.
I guess that makes me sound crazy but that's alright.
Lately i feel like i might be, not that i've heard any voices or anything.
Just like that everyday kind, where you forget things you shouldn't
And you think too much about death.
Maybe you know what i'm talking about.
Or maybe you would have known?
Or had known?
Is it once knew?
I don't know what tense to use.
I know i never used to feel like this.
I used to never think of death or hear voices.
I used to feel like everything was perfectly in order, a normal life, but i guess then came a departure.
That i know you understand (or would've understood?).
I guess things changed after that, and i'm mostly scared now.
But it's there in the stories, or whatever they are.
You can see it.
Anybody could if they could look.
I wrote some notes in the margins explaining it.
The rest is in between lines or in the fine print.
First, the feeling of abandonment, then trying to cope.
Then death and hope and the thing itself, waiting for me.
It's all there in the pages ahead of here.
It's there waiting for you.
Or for me. i'm not sure.
The whole story.
