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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
A Departure
La Dispute
Night fell on me writing this and i ran out of paper
So i crossed the name out at the top of the page.
Not sure why i'm even writing this.
But i guess it feels right.
It sort of feels like i have to-like an exorcism.
I guess that makes me sound crazy but that's alright.
Lately i feel like i might be, not that i've heard any voices or anything.
Just like that everyday kind, where you forget things you shouldn't
And you think too much about death.
Maybe you know what i'm talking about.
Or maybe you would have known?
Or had known?
Is it once knew?
I don't know what tense to use.
I know i never used to feel like this.
I used to never think of death or hear voices.
I used to feel like everything was perfectly in order, a normal life, but i guess then came a departure.
That i know you understand (or would've understood?).
I guess things changed after that, and i'm mostly scared now.
But it's there in the stories, or whatever they are.
You can see it.
Anybody could if they could look.
I wrote some notes in the margins explaining it.
The rest is in between lines or in the fine print.
First, the feeling of abandonment, then trying to cope.
Then death and hope and the thing itself, waiting for me.
It's all there in the pages ahead of here.
It's there waiting for you.
Or for me. i'm not sure.
The whole story.
