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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
I Shaved My Head
La Dispute
I left the water running
I watched my hair block the drain
And on the bathroom's flooding ground
Built no ark for myself
I longed for end times coming
I understood what it meant
To need to kill to reset
This stranger standing reflected
With my old image blending
Inside the mirror before me
The death of self portended by
All the years that I spent closing my eyes
To try to change what I'd become now in life
To die and start again
I fixed my eyes on the light above
The level rising
And let it swallow me whole
All gaps from floor to ceiling closed
Up and onto my neck
The steady water flowing
Then climbing over my head
I shut them tight to accept
As if in amber suspended
Both arms and legs extended
The pressure bending the glass
Then shattered out and down I went
Forces pulling to the surface of earth
Like some raptured body played in reverse
To start and die again
Two summers past
At the bathroom sink and standing
Shirtless cutting my beard
You came in to sit and talk
I watched you watch in the mirror
Brought the trimmer grinning up to my head
Said: Hey I'd never have to pay to get my hair cut again
Nervous laugh
Said: You wouldn't
Interrupted when the trimmer lowered
Fistfuls of hair falling softly down
To the floor before you
And you cried for a minute when I did
Like a child who saw their father for the first time
With a shaven face
A subtle change
A sudden stranger
Made and then betrayed
The shape turned unfamiliar
First I thought you were scared
That I could never grow it back again
Now I see at least six months passed
Since you'd recognized me
A decade spent dissociating
Backwards from the past
Inside alive and laughing
Still
A minor change in desperation
A minor change in desperation
The mirrored shape my bent reflection made
Shaved my head to force a change
To be un-recognized
