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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
I Shaved My Head
La Dispute
I left the water running
I watched my hair block the drain
And on the bathroom's flooding ground
Built no ark for myself
I longed for end times coming
I understood what it meant
To need to kill to reset
This stranger standing reflected
With my old image blending
Inside the mirror before me
The death of self portended by
All the years that I spent closing my eyes
To try to change what I'd become now in life
To die and start again
I fixed my eyes on the light above
The level rising
And let it swallow me whole
All gaps from floor to ceiling closed
Up and onto my neck
The steady water flowing
Then climbing over my head
I shut them tight to accept
As if in amber suspended
Both arms and legs extended
The pressure bending the glass
Then shattered out and down I went
Forces pulling to the surface of earth
Like some raptured body played in reverse
To start and die again
Two summers past
At the bathroom sink and standing
Shirtless cutting my beard
You came in to sit and talk
I watched you watch in the mirror
Brought the trimmer grinning up to my head
Said: Hey I'd never have to pay to get my hair cut again
Nervous laugh
Said: You wouldn't
Interrupted when the trimmer lowered
Fistfuls of hair falling softly down
To the floor before you
And you cried for a minute when I did
Like a child who saw their father for the first time
With a shaven face
A subtle change
A sudden stranger
Made and then betrayed
The shape turned unfamiliar
First I thought you were scared
That I could never grow it back again
Now I see at least six months passed
Since you'd recognized me
A decade spent dissociating
Backwards from the past
Inside alive and laughing
Still
A minor change in desperation
A minor change in desperation
The mirrored shape my bent reflection made
Shaved my head to force a change
To be un-recognized
