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    La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)

  2. 2

    La Dispute - King Park

  3. 3

    La Dispute - Such Small Hands

  4. 4

    La Dispute - Andria

  5. 5

    La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks

  6. 6

    La Dispute - I See Everything

  7. 7

    La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain

  8. 8

    La Dispute - Bury Your Flames

  9. 9

    La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times

  10. 10

    La Dispute - Fulton Street I

  11. 11

    La Dispute - I Shaved My Head

  12. 12

    La Dispute - Why It Scares Me

  13. 13

    La Dispute - Woman (Reading)

  14. 14

    La Dispute - You And I In Unison

  15. 15

    La Dispute - A Departure

  16. 16

    La Dispute - A Letter

  17. 17

    La Dispute - Damaged Goods

  18. 18

    La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again

  19. 19

    La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown

  20. 20

    La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film

  21. 21

    La Dispute - Four

  22. 22

    La Dispute - Harder Harmonies

  23. 23

    La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid

  24. 24

    La Dispute - How I Feel

  25. 25

    La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers

  26. 26

    La Dispute - Nine

  27. 27

    La Dispute - Said the King To the River

  28. 28

    La Dispute - See You In Vancouver

  29. 29

    La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power

  30. 30

    La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound

  31. 31

    La Dispute - Six

  32. 32

    La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues

  33. 33

    La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent

  34. 34

    La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit

  35. 35

    La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet

  36. 36

    La Dispute - 35

  37. 37

    La Dispute - A

  38. 38

    La Dispute - A Broken Jar

  39. 39

    La Dispute - A Poem

  40. 40

    La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning

  41. 41

    La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama

  42. 42

    La Dispute - Autofiction detail

  43. 43

    La Dispute - Eight

  44. 44

    La Dispute - Eleven

  45. 45

    La Dispute - End Times Sermon

  46. 46

    La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party

  47. 47

    La Dispute - Fairmount

  48. 48

    La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice

  49. 49

    La Dispute - Five

  50. 50

    La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond

  51. 51

    La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville

  52. 52

    La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii

  53. 53

    La Dispute - Future Wars

  54. 54

    La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi

  55. 55

    La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In

  56. 56

    La Dispute - In Northern Michigan

  57. 57

    La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In

  58. 58

    La Dispute - Last Blues

  59. 59

    La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles

  60. 60

    La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound

  61. 61

    La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car

  62. 62

    La Dispute - Objects In Space

  63. 63

    La Dispute - One

  64. 64

    La Dispute - Only Everything Below

  65. 65

    La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief

  66. 66

    La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies

  67. 67

    La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan

  68. 68

    La Dispute - Saturation Diver

  69. 69

    La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009

  70. 70

    La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards

  71. 71

    La Dispute - Seven

  72. 72

    La Dispute - Stay Happy There

  73. 73

    La Dispute - Steve

  74. 74

    La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral

  75. 75

    La Dispute - Ten

  76. 76

    La Dispute - The Castle Builders

  77. 77

    La Dispute - The Child We Lost

  78. 78

    La Dispute - The Field

  79. 79

    La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist

  80. 80

    La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right

  81. 81

    La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)

  82. 82

    La Dispute - Thirteen

  83. 83

    La Dispute - Three

  84. 84

    La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms

  85. 85

    La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas

  86. 86

    La Dispute - Twelve

  87. 87

    La Dispute - Two

  88. 88

    La Dispute - Untitled

  89. 89

    La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window

  90. 90

    La Dispute - You Ascendant

The Child We Lost

La Dispute

There were shadows in the bedroom
Where the light got thrown by the lamp on the nightstand
On your mother’s side, after midnight, still
You can see it all
You can see it all
And the closet in the corner
On the far back shelf with the keepsakes, she hid
That box there full of letters of regret
By the pictures of the kids

You get faint recollections of your mother’s sigh, countryside drive
And the landscape seen from the window of the backseat with some flowers in a basket

That afternoon after school you and your older sisters
Found your parents in the kitchen at the table
Father lifting off the lid of the box

And a hush fell over everything like a funeral prayer
A reverence, ancestral, heavy in the air

Though you didn’t understand what it meant
That they never said her name aloud around you
Even sitting at the table with her things they’d kept
You recall faintly cards, tiny clothes, and the smell of the paint in the upstairs bedroom
Until then you didn’t know that’s what the box had held

Your parents tiptoeing slowly around always speaking in code

No, they never said her name aloud around you
Only told you it was perfect where your sister went
And you didn’t understand why it hurt them so much then that she’d come and left so soon
Could only guess inside your head at what a “stillbirth” meant
Only knew that mother wept

You watched while father held her, said “some things come but can’t stay here.”
You saw a brightness
Like a light through your eyes closed tight then she tumbled away.

From here, some place
To remain in the nighttime shadows she made
To be an absence in mom, a sadness hanging over her
Like some pentacostal flame, drifting on and off
She was “sister,” only whispered.
Sometimes “her” or
“The child we lost.”

You were visions
A vagueness, a faded image
You were visions

You were a flame lit that burned out twice as brightly as the rest of us did
When you left, you were light, then you tumbled away

There are shadows that fall still here at a certain angle
In the bedroom on the nightstand by your mother’s side
From the light left on there

There’s the box in the closet, all the things kept
And the landscape where she left
Flowers on the grave, marble where they etched that name
And mother cried the whole way home

But she never said it once out loud
On the way back home from where you thought they meant
When they said where sister went

After grandpa got hospice sick and he couldn’t fall sleep
They wheeled his stretcher bed beside her at night
And I saw the light

On the day that he died
By their bed in grandma’s eyes
While us grandkids said our goodbyes

She said “don’t cry”
Somewhere he holds her
Said a name I didn’t recognize
And the light with all the shadows combined

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